Dreams Along the Way Series

A Journey through Dreams to the Feminine

BOOK 2

Authoring Self

A Journey through Dreams to the Feminine

This is a highly provocative and original book about rebirthing the feminine soul through dreams, meditation, prayer and reflection. It is a combination of the experiential and theoretical rooted in both psychological and mythological research while firmly anchored deeply within one woman’s transformational journey. This book is filled with some of the many questions asked by a midlife woman in her search to recover her Self.

How much is Pearl willing to sacrifice in her search to find and heal the inner obstacles to woman’s psychological freedom? For it is said that entry into the underworld, the transformational journey of a soul, demands a very steep price. Learning to work with images, using active imagination and the principles of transpersonal psychology, Pearl grapples with the use of inclusive language, learning that she has grown up steeped in patriarchal religion, language and imagery. She learns she has been betrayed by her own life. Reading extensively only to find that the early church fathers consider women “flawed men,” “evil” and “responsible for the downfall of humanity,” Pearl struggles with the deepest feminist issues. Under the tutelage of wise teachers and many books, she finds that she can stand and speak without anger or tears in the face of the authority of man. She must heal her own molten inner rage.

Images of ancient patriarchal authorities from the textbooks of her many years of education appear in her dreams. She is faced with the fact that her own psyche has been colonized by the patriarchy centuries out of mind!

Now, she must learn about the Truth from within her Self rather than the Truth of Authority. Dreams abound with multiple images from the depth of both her personal unconscious and the even deeper collective unconscious. When leaving New York, one of her guides says clearly, “Pearl, you must deal with your issues of church.” Suddenly, her dream world is flooded by images of ancient goddess religions, the dance of the feminine, the ring and the cosmic egg symbolic of wholeness. Some images, such as the yellow wallpaper, feel like direct comments from psyche on the gaslighting faced by women within patriarchal structures that rely on power, violence and beliefs in woman as “less than.” Progressing through many dreams highlighting the structure of her psyche and aspects of transpersonal psychology, Pearl works to integrate the spiritual and the transcendent aspects of her experience.

This is the story of the greening of the soul in the language of Hildegard of Bingen, Julian of Norwich and other ancient women mystics. The images are nurturing, frightening and deeply transformative. In her story, Pearl confronts the depths of oppression in a patriarchal church, government and social institutions. This work will appeal to those honest enough to seek to come to terms with their own complicity in the silencing of the Feminine in Western culture. This memoir brings to the surface the rage, anger and ugliness of her own inner world. It is the thesis of this memoir that relationships must come to honour the deep mutuality possible in the depths of the fully awakened person. Authoring Self beckons us to embrace the coming of the Cosmic Mary, the Cosmic Christ Consciousness. This is more than mere words. This is a life in practice. This work honours the beauty and the blackness, the good and the ugly.

Book I

I, the Woman, Planted the Tree

A Journey through Dreams to the Feminine

Yet another nightmare, one more black depression, hearing voices, more psychiatric appointments, the threat of foreclosure, and disappointment in God, her Catholic church and her weak faith–a midlife mother, wife and high school administrator embarks on a frantic journey to heal clinical depression.

Months later, a member of her large family, concerned about her possible involvement with the occult, sends her a large box of books. One book about dreams begins a lifetime of inner work with a dream of falling, prayer and a safe landing. This is the story of Pearl Gregor’s deep and arduous journey into the darkness with the light of dreams to guide her. Little did she know, but that first dream held the energy of the archetypal descent to the underworld. Within every woman lies the energy of the Sumerian myth of Inanna.

A few months and a few thousand mantras after her first Sunday evening meditation, strangely mystical experiences, transcendent light, and a deeply moving vision of sunflowers, seeds, a forest of trees and a beautiful river of silver coins promise deep joy and healing. A series of events including a charismatic breakfast healing service releases floods of energy. After more weeks of intense inner work, the memory of preverbal childhood sexual molestation emerges. From deep within, floods of intense energy transformed her very cellular structure.

The clinical depression never returned. That should have marked the end of the story. Everlasting peace, miracles and sublime peacefulness. Right? No. Only in the movies and televangelism. Pearl’s soul journey took her through the repressed emotions of early childhood trauma and its impact on body, mind and spirit. Through dreams, Pearl learned to question every detail of deeply held and centuries old tribal beliefs. Such a process of finding the repressed feminine, aspects of the goddess and eroding deeply held fears in search of the authentic self requires hard work. The truth is it would take years to integrate, assimilate, and accept that these experiences were in fact real. The path leads through dreams, multitudes of books on feminism, Jungian psychology, spirituality, Catholicism, religion and history. While the road is strewn with barriers, boulders and bogey men, it also provides the resources to work with deeply symbolic material arising through dreams. This book contains 66 life-changing, healing, frightening and transformational dreams as ancient as the Eleusinian Blood Mysteries. Pearl filled dozens of journals.

In her relentless search for her own authority, she learned the depth of generations of inherited cultural constructs about woman’s invisibility, passivity, insignificance and silence. Struggling with fears of ridicule and alienation, and the crushing weight of unhinging the many fixed positions of educated, liberal arts, progressive, spiritual, religious and scientific beliefs, Pearl managed to establish the right to her own beliefs.

This is her story of life seen through the eyes of a midlife woman and her spiritual transformation on the way to becoming Crone.

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I, the Woman, Planted the Tree
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by Judith Litke on I, the Woman, Planted the Tree
I, the Woman, Planted the Tree: A Journey through Dreams to the Feminine

Pearl generously shares her conversations with Soul. As one privileged reader travelling along this journey I sense it isn't for the feint of heart, nor the heartless. It is for seekers. Thank you Pearl.

by Brenda Grace Trieber on I, the Woman, Planted the Tree
Enlightening

Pearl E Gregor creates a safe and fearless environment to explore one's own dreams. I now look at my dreams as to what my sub conscious may be trying to teach me. Reading her book is like having a conversation with her.

by Dr. Ara Parker, Registered Art Therapist and Psychotherapist on I, the Woman, Planted the Tree
This book is a gift.

This book is a gift. There is the deepest most personal kind of storying here; situated between the world of consensual experience, reason and the realms of the ineffable and meaning.

The writing is mature and poetic and seduces one into reflecting on one’s own dance with the divine feminine.

Born of sinew and blood and seeds, this book of becoming - through madness and sanity -through the feminine and patriarchy, provides a gentle and powerful companion to those willing to courageously enter their own authentic journey to selfhood.

In this first of a planned trilogy of books, Gregor offers herself as sacrifice in the most creative, soul-searching way; an exemplar for others. She writes from the sacred alchemy of her soul. Pearl has sacrificed her “identity as a spiritual daughter of the patriarchy” and bears witness to a resurrection 5000 years in the ripening- a beckoning to other women to follow.

Pearl Gregor’s journey through illness is also testimony to the ravages on the soul made as a result of a legacy of patriarchy and institutionalized religion. The author is seeking her spiritual journey and honoring secret experiences along the way that speak a truth into embodied knowing that is unshakeable and trustworthy. For those interested in entering into retreat for themselves, Gregor also offers her home, land, sanctuary and guidance for this purpose. This book could provide a powerful orientation to that journey as well.

The reader is invited into a deeply personal account of the challenges of living with depression in the most intelligent self-aware and poetic way.

~ Dr. Ara Parker, Registered Art Therapist and Psychotherapist.

by Lucille Mandin on I, the Woman, Planted the Tree
Healing the Feminine

Finally, a book that sparks the Divine Feminine! She brings awareness to the power of intuition, creativity, beauty and synchronicity in our lives. An uplifting and meaningful memoir with an important message – the power of the unconscious.
It is truly a work of love, courage and faith, a labyrinth of healing!
A book to guide us ever upward in the spiral dance of healing. Her powerful, transparent voice sheds light on her courageous journey through dreams that she generously shares with readers. I recommend this book to all of you seeking a companion to pursue your own journey. You will not be disappointed! Pearl continues to inspire me.

So looking forward to reading the next book!

by Irene Magee on I, the Woman, Planted the Tree
Inspirational-A Must Read!!

This is a must read!!

I,the Woman,Planted the Tree, by Pearl E. Gregor, is a fascinating and inspiring story of one woman’s journey in the discovery of self. Pearl talks openly and honestly of her clinical depression, preverbal molestation, faith, dreamwork, the impact of the patriarchy throughout her life and so much more. Her story of healing depression through many years of dreamwork involved a good deal of dismantling and rebuilding. She shares her story humbly with the hope that knowing about her depression may help with your own healing. This is Book One of her amazing, agonizing and rewarding journey in becoming her own authentic self.

Pearl’s intent to move beyond silence and to speak with her own voice about the Divine Feminine is clear. Her memoir gives me hope that we are all capable of discovering our own authentic selves. We need only to begin with the knowledge that we are in charge of our own journey, Write the dream.

My sincere wish to everyone who is seeking is that you find a guide who is as knowledgeable, as accepting, as gentle, as caring and as kind as Pearl Gregor. One who will frequently remind you that this is your journey, no one else’s, Thank you for sharing your story, Pearl. I look forward to the publishing of Books Two and Three.

by Amazon Customer on I, the Woman, Planted the Tree
Inspiring, Raw, Compelling - A Must Read!

A moving and compelling story of one woman's journey in the discovery of self and in finding relief from the debilitating effects of clinical depression. Throughout this arduous journey, Pearl continues to unravel some of her life mysteries, while striving and succeeding in a world governed by patriarchal order, stringent church roles, expectations and constraints. As the story unfolds, you are drawn in and shown the possibilities of what alternative therapies such as dream journaling and meditation can offer, after many traditional medicines and therapies had failed. Pearl's soul journey in finding balance and in becoming, will be with you long after you have finished reading the book.